A Deterred Dance

Seriously, I feel bad. Jason really wanted to go and meet women that could be prospective wives while I just really wanted to stay at home and be slothful. I won out because Skip and I are very good at subtly entrancing people into conversations. Hehehehe, so no Prop 8 dance for us tonight! Yay! I bought 2 new shoes today. I am so excited, they are way cool. Now, I need socks.

The Two Sides of A Coin

Sometimes, you just have to be really vague with the things that you say. You never know if you could really hurt anyone. I've heard some people I bet, probably not even knowing it, but sometimes, you have to have an inkling. It isn't like I was drunk or anything that I would miss that! About a month ago, my site supervisor pulled me aside and told me that she had received some complaints about how I teach. A parent had come up and said that her child had been hearing me say that I am going to kill them, etc. Retarded, I thought. I put it in the back of my head. No biggie. It happens all the time when children do not want to get into trouble, they use scapegoats. It seems like I am the likely scapegoat. Today, was another "warning" to me, and it really sucks because I really enjoy what I do, even if the kids have this crazy attitude about them, I really do love them. We will just have to see where that one will go. Earlier today, though, I ran into Janelle. She had just broken up with Skip and she is taking it pretty hard. I feel awful because no one deserves to feel that way. It was almost like an unrequieted love and it was under that pretense that it existed and now that the truth is out, it hurts, because you never really had it. Janelle had just started coming back to church and she and Skip started dating about 6 months ago. Now she feels a little left out. All of her acquaintances are mostly through Skip and now that that is through, she feels as though she has no one. Nothing. It is saddening. Did I tell you that her twin sister is engaged to be married? Talk about tough. For me today, I have just decided that I am going to do my best and also plan ahead. It is payday tomorrow, i wonder where my money will go!

Proposition 8 in All Its Glory

After work, Jason picked me up from work. Like I said, we have become good buddies. It is just kinda sad that he will be leaving soon. Ugh, why is life like that? I gotta find new friends again. Anyways, it was a very good and informative fireside. It really made me ask myself what I could do to help progress this cause. It is funny because one never really thinks about these kind of things, but they truly are important. One thing I learned from it is tolerance. It really does seem like it would be one way, one side forcing the other to recognise and not coming to any conclusion. I remember back on my mission in this city called Brainerd how odd it was to not feel welcomed in this certain coffee shop. It was a 'haven' for the 'social outcasts.' I think it is funny though because they made us feel more like the social outcasts by the way they stared at us. Almost instantaneously, they jeered at us. I though to myself- for people who want to be treated with respect, they sure are showing us exactly how they want it. So, I guess, I can see what I need to do. I think that the term is paying it forward...I hope that my charity will create a positive response.